New beginnings I sort of saw coming...

Bad news on the job front kids. Ms. Dimes was laid off from her job yesterday due to money constraints. I had had a recurring dream where I would be laid off, and I suppose it was my subconscious trying to tell me something. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason, and the force that guides me would not give me a challenge I couldn't face. I can do this; I can do anything. My motivation to succeed is what makes me get up everyday and keep trying to reach my goals.

Alright, enough of the self-help commercial. There have been other things going on, but they really don't matter in the grand scheme of things right now. I have been applying to places anywhere, and something good is right around the corner. Let's just hope that corner isn't on a street 2 months of blocks away. I can't be unemployed. Quite frankly, I don't understand people who choose to be unemployed. Working for your own money is a great thing.

Things with Mr. Charles are rapidly coming to an end. He's no good for me, and I deserve someone who is. I am just going to take this weekend to focus on relaxing and having a good time with friends. I am also going to focus on rum. Sweet, beautifully delicious rum.

So, keep your heads up. And I'll do the same.

Always yours,

Ms. Dimes.

He's gone to me now. Where do we go from here....?

Like so many other things in life, Mr. Charles is gone. He left yesterday afternoon while I was at work. He called me to tell me that he was at the airport and he would be boarding in ten minutes.

On what would be our last night together for what seems to be a few weeks at the least he gave me a scarf of his that he cares about. He asked me to hold on to it so I could either mail it back if I wanted, or keep it until he returns to get it back. Most don't know that he's left as of now, and I think those who'd want to know will find out as time progresses. I miss him already though.

And as much as I want to be with him and only him, I constantly remind myself that his heart is just not ready for that kind of commitment. And even if he was, I wouldn't be with him anyway. I keep my heart very guarded, and I won't walk into a situation where I could get hurt. He has a lot of baggage from the last relationship he was in, and there has not been enough time in between for him to move past some of it. So where does that leave me?

I am focusing on myself and the things I have going for me. My job, health, friends, writing, family, and all of those other positive things I sometimes forget I have. When he comes back, we can see where we left off. But Ms. Dimes waits on NO MAN and that's how it'll stay.

Coming up on next blog: more juicy goodness.

Until then: ladies keep those legs up (for a worthy man, of course), and fellas keep your shit straight.